*** Brayden’s cute bow tie was a gift from Monick at Lillybug Lane. Love it!
It’s official. I’m big. I’ve stopped weighing myself because I know I can’t control the inevitable anymore. The “hunger” has returned. When I was pregnant with Brayden I had the “hunger” all the time. I was starving my entire pregnancy. I got lucky with this one because I really wasn’t too hungry for the first 22ish weeks. But, it’s back and I’m making up for lost time. No real cravings. I just can’t ever seem to get full. Eating has officially become a chore.
This baby is active. No, she’s not just active, she’s a little crazy. Her most active period is between 8 and 11pm. But, really, she moves all day and night. She hates it when I sleep on my left side and let’s me know it. She is crazy active and opinionated. I was really hoping this baby might have some of my husband’s personality traits because I can’t handle two kids who act like me (Yes, Mom. I know. It’s the ultimate payback).
Now that I am only 15 weeks away from having this baby (I will most likely have a c-section at 39 week), I’m starting to have a lot of anxiety about the labor and delivery. I chose a doctor that will allow me to do a VBAC if I choose. But, with a VBAC they won’t induce me and I’m very nervous that if I go past my due date again I will get preeclampsia for a second time. I probably won’t get it again. My doctor said that I’m more likely to get it again than the average person, but less likely to get it than I was the first time (if that makes sense). I’m scared that if I go for the VBAC and go past my due date I could end up having to have a c section anyways and have to go on the mag again. Which, is my worst nightmare. I’m certain that I can deal with any type of labor and deliver if I can do it without being on magnesium sulfate. I just want to be present this time. The mag makes you feel like you have a horrible case of the flu. I was hot, achey, and nauseous on top of all the normal labor pains. And to make it worse, I was on it 24 hours I delivered and had to have blood drawn every hour (which meant even less usual sleep for a new mom) AND they would not let me have water. I didn’t eat, drink or sleep for almost 3 days. I know that people go through much worse labors and deliveries, but I’m just hoping I can have one with a little less drama than last time.
I’ll do whatever I have to do to end up with a healthy baby. But, it’s so much scarier going into it the second time and knowing what can go wrong. With Brayden I thought the worst thing that could possibly happen would be that I would poop during delivery and welcomed an excuse to have a c-section. This time I would just LOVE to go into labor on my own. I want that whole water breaking, rushing to the hospital with contractions experience.
Besides being starving, dealing with a crazy baby, and having a bit of anxiety I’m feeling pretty good. I’m actually sleeping better than I was and am taking a sleeping aid about once a week to get a really good nights sleep. Sitting for long periods of time is starting to hurt and I feel a lot better after going for long walks. I walk slow, but it feels good to stretch everything out.
Time is flying by. I really need to get started on the nursery…